Gentle hugs to you.

Lee is wise, and correct. Unfortunately, going to the bottle, pills, or pipe is never the best solution to our misery. It only complicates our lives even more than before. It gives people more reason to avoid us, only making us even lonelier than before.

I have been there and done that myself many times. Just last night at that! It is a never-ending battle to get out of the cycle of hurt.

No, you aren't alone at all. There are lots of resources out there for drug & alcohol support. In my opinion, using is always more complicated than a person just needing to get off the bottle (or whatever). There is always pain inside that people are trying to avoid. It's just a matter of time before the cause of those pains is revealed. (In my humble opinion, anyway.)

Gentle hugs to you.