My life is one big mess!! I keep hurting the people that I love and who love me! My best friend hates me, and I have to live under the same roof as her so as you can guess the atmosphere isn't great! I got really drunk at the weekend and it turned messy. I can't tell you what happened because i don't remember. All I know is that apparently I told my friends Dad to F**k off when he told me I needed to go to bed because of the state I was in. Then when my friend found out she confronted me and apparently I kept laughing and telling her I was gonna die. I ended up on the extension roof and my friends mum shouted at me to get down of which I have a fague recollection of. The next thing I remember is walking down the street towards the hospital but couldn't tell them what had happened because I didn't know. They couldn't admit me because I was drunk so they paid for a taxi to my brothers and then my sister in law took me to my mums. I'm now back home with my friend and her parents. My friends parents are being ok with me but my friend hasn't acknowledged me. They all know about my Bipolar and have all been very supportive and I just keep messing up. This is not the first time I have done something stupid and I know the outcome could have been much worse but nothing seems to deter me from doing these stupid things. I feel like such a useless person who only brings trouble and pain to people. I don't know what to do anymore!!!