Ok its great your seeing your Psychologist in the morning that is gonna be helpful right!!!

Maybe write her a letter explaining your actionss(the ones you remember). I know what you mean my friends get sick of me saying sorry as sorry means nothing now so there is no point in saying that. We need a new word to use huh!!!

Well I am hoping tomorrow will answer so much for you. Maybe your Psychologist can help you fight the black hole.... which your not wnating to hit!!!