(((Lara))) I really understand. I'm in a similar boat. Questioning the purpose of my life, drinking too much, about 4 times a week, and at times having a total sense of humour failure and making a fool of myself. I get very sensitive and take things personally. I guess I'm in mild depression. I prob should see my T and work through this, but these are just my emotions. I expect the cycle to lift.
I've just realised that if people get upset with me during these times, they probably need more education.

You're doing ok. You're in the hands of people who love and care for you. If you now still feel like you're not coping-go to the hospital.

Xxx