I so can to relate to nearly everything on hear. I usually wake up in the middle of the night to go to the toilet and the first thing that pops in my head before i even open my eyes properly ... I hope i don't have a panic attack, then there are the stupid thought. I usually take half a tablet and hop back in bed with my laptop and preoccupied my mind. Until i feel ok. I am to the point and i find this so embarrassing. wheres i have move my mattress out in the lounge room so i can fall asleep with everyone around me and the noise of the tv. Cause if i fall asleep on the lounge and then wake up later to go to bed i know i will really freak. Or if i go into my room and try to sleep, my mind starts thinking stupid... My partner is fine with it and says if it helps we'll do it. So he sleeps out there with me.
Then there is the constant fear of having a .... i hate say it...!!!
The doc put me back on Aropax that focuses more on the anxiety of things. I have been on it a few times before over the years. I was on Zoloft but didn't think it was doing much for my anxiety. So i went back on the Aropax.
I hopes things start to improve for u Cyran0 and everyone on here.