Tree, you have children and a husband and your own destiny to work on... I know your Mom is a large figure in life - maybe the largest - but your entire life is not about keeping her alive. Oh I wish I could take that burden off you, it is a great weight that doesn't deserve to crush you like this. You are a good daughter to her and that's what your life is about in her area, but she is not your whole life. Please try to understand that.

When my Mom died I was so surprised at the new landscape I saw around me. Before her death I had thought (a little) about what it would be like, if she wasn't there, but when we came to the event, wow it was very different. Not bad, I am not saying it was bad - just unexpectedly different.