I'm sorry you are struggling so much right now. I remember when my urges came back. I was one that was never good at relationships. When I started dating after I graduated, that's when it all came back. I had a nice 2 or 3 year vacation from it all.

It's funny, but I don't even know how I even stopped. I just remember when it started back up. Sometimes now I think that it'll never stop for me and that nothing will ever ease these urges.

I just wanted you to know that you aren't alone in this.