Great going!!! When I read statements like yours I feel the deepest, deepest respect and admiration. What an accomplishment! And boy, do I know. It's just so happy to hear from folks like you. And it may well be that you're still not free of that terrible attraction, like most of us. Which of course makes your achievement all the more incredible and praiseworthy. KEEP IT UP!!! And, of course, if you ever, ever need help in continuing to hew to the line you know where to get it. Right here. Love yourself. Feel good about yourself. Relax. You're worth it! Take care.