Aw, your advice is a lot to me, thine_self... Thank you... A lot more than two cents. You're really brave for talking to your boyfriend. He had to keep nagging me for me to get it out there. I wish I could tell him, but... See... He's dealing with so much right now... And what happened, that I haven't really mentioned yet on this site, is that his ex-girlfriend died recently... I can't talk about it that much, because I'm getting really upset, and I kind of feel like I'm betraying him when I talk about it, but she was suicidal... I don't want to scare him. He already can't sleep because of nightmares about her. I can't... I don't think I could do it to him....

And Sannah... I don't know... Just generally guilty, I guess. It's hard to explain...

Thank you, to both of you, though...