My answer was I don't think I am depressed...others do.
I just hate life, hate myself, and hate living.
And it isn't depression saying that it is just a fact of life for me.
I have read some other posts tonight in Depression forum and one was about NOT FEELING anything. And I thought, yeah, wow, that is it.
I just don't FEEL.

Pdoc is nice and don't want to ruffle feathers because I know if I say the wrong things in the hospital I will go...
Quietly I wait my turn.