I have been married for almost 25 years and have done the hate/love, never want to see him again/what would I do without him thing over and over.

With time, it has gotten better though. Moods don't last as long. Sometimes something happens and the next day I don't even remember what it was. That's a great thing about life: time passes.

I think it helps to just not believe there is such thing as a perfect marriage to begin with. You set yourself up this way. It is hard to be married and with one person, and you can't expect two people to be in the same place all of the time with their relationship.

Sometimes when I think I hate my husband I need to remind myself of all of the good things. A big thing on this list is that he is still with me, after all the stuff I have put him through. But you know what? I put up with HIS stuff too. Trade him in, and you will just get a new set of issues.

We are all just human beings, doing the best we can. You are not crazier than anyone else, just different. And a diagnosis does not define who you are.. so don't let it.