I'm sorry to hear that you're feeling so hopeless. Love has a weird way of showing up only when you stop looking - maybe because you become more focused on yourself, and other people are drawn to that.

It's hard to do much about the job or college, for economic reasons. Maybe you could spend some time developing a hobby that you really enjoy? It could be writing, drawing, playing video games, going for walks - anything that brings you joy. The best way to find love is to find happiness, first. Other people are drawn to it.

Best wishes.