Hugs to you! I know it's hard. Up until 2 years ago, I could run and jump and play more with my kids. I can't climb on the playground toys with them anymore, and I have a little one who still needs help. My job makes my problems more painful and worse, too. It really bothers me also when my physical problems affect my abilities. Try to hang in there and take each day one at a time. I know that it's frustrating right now, but eventually it will be easier to accept what life gives us.