Sometimes I get an obsession with the meghan's law website and I can't stop myself from looking up every person in a 100 mile radius mapping ways to avoid the homes and making sure none live near my little niece or near places she goes often. If I go away on vacations or out of town I map all of those too. I feel this is because I never got justice and my abuser isn't on the list so it's the only way I know how to "make up for it". By avoiding everyone who is on the list.

Sometimes If I feel okay I may look into their crimes and match it up with whether they were abusing children and only avoiding those who were. For example there was a man in at my office who was on the list, my brother ( a cop) taught me how to read crimes in the law "fashion". In essence this man slept with a prostitute. Sometimes I'm not afraid of him, because he's mentally ill and has a low IQ. Sometimes I tell myself he knew it was wrong, but probably didn't understand what's really behind a prostitute. (Prostitutes don't choose the profession, it's often forced). So sometimes I can accept and sometimes I'm afraid of him.

Does anyone else do this to "avoid something bad"? Or anything similar? How can I stop the obsession/compulsion?