Logically I know that I'm not responsible for other people's feelings, but I hate the thought of hurting someone.

Some of you may have read the thread about the guy I thought was married. But he says that he's not and he's only had one gf at the age of 30 and that only lasted a few weeks and he's now 38. It always seems like he is living in a tree and I feel like I have to explain stuff to him because he's been so sheltered. I also am really scared about the idea of being somebody's first sexual intercourse experience. I've done that before and both guys that I was their first threw it in my face and berated me for it when we got into an argument. Needles to say, that really kicked me in the gut.

I did meet him one time. The conversation was so-so. We did kiss, which I feel kind of bad about. I've not emailed him for a few days because I want to sit back and think

Then I met another bloke on that silly match.com thing. He seems very nice. He is a doctor which is something I've never dated! haha. He has an eleven year old daughter who he loves more than anything and is so kind to her. We had a date and it went really well. He is very understanding of things because his own sister has mental health issues and he also had an alcoholic father. I felt a lot more comfortable with this guy than the other guy.

I dunno. I'm just really feeling all anxious. I've been through so much abuse that I always expect the worst out of anyone.

I am feeling super guilty about letting the other guy go, even though we were never an item to begin with.

Both guys talk about how crazy they are about me and I just feel so awful about hurting one of them.