If you take a low enough dose of antipsychotics you won't experience a bad zombie state. Only thing is, you can actually feel it which sucks. For me it is worth it though.

I would be scared. If she tired to do that to me I think I would start crying. I am terrified of going back to a hospital. (I had a fairly good experience at one, though.) I understand where you're coming from. ((((((Tsunamisurfer!)))))))