It's 4:26 am and I can't sleep.

I can't sleep because I can't stop crying.

A horrible sadness has been triggered within me.

I felt better, much better after a certain message, but now I feel bad because of my circumstance.

I hate being me. Why can't I be a normal human being? With normal emotions and reactions?

This sadness is scaring me. At first it was frustration, anger, desperation , a feeling of abandonment and impulsivity that was dangerous to me. With the second message, that is gone now, but the sadness stayed.

The sadness stayed.

I wish there was a pill to make a person stop crying.

The insanity is gone now. I'm not upset about those things that upset me anymore, but for some reason I'm still crying my eyes out.

Maybe my brain is struck in sad mode right now. I wish I was happy again. I was so happy just a few hours ago.

I want to be happy again.

If you are my friend, can you tell me this? I really need some friends right now.

Tell me about yourself so that I can know you better.

I'm so sad, I think I might get a hamster tomorrow. I need a distraction.

I really need a distraction. I don't want to die. I don't want to be sad or upset.

That's it, hamster tomorrow.

Hamster will comfort me.