Ditto what everyone else said! The fact that you can recognize that something is wrong is a good thing. And you know what you need to do for yourself. That's definitely not stupid. That's incredibly wise. Follow through and you will come out the other side with your head held high.
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Put the hammer down, keep it full speed ahead
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