Thanks! Sometimes I feel like people don't understand why this is so hard for me or are unwilling to be supportive to me because it was my sister instead of a grown man or someone like that. All I know is that I am in a lot of pain right now and need help and support desperately whether I like it or not. It's discouraging to me that you're the only one to reply to my thread. I am afraid that people don't think my pain is valid. Sorry for the word vomit.