Abuse is abuse no matter who the perpetrator is! Your pain is very valid and I'm listening! Sometimes at PC it takes a little bit for people to get to know you before they start responding to your threads. It doesn't have anything to do with you...you matter! I'm sorry you feel discouraged, please give PC a chance and I think you will find the support you are looking for. I understand the pain of CSA...do you have any other options for therapy after this? Keep hanging in there, you are in my thoughts!