So I chickened out, but we did talk about stuff all night together. Of course things that I really want to talk about I didn't have the guts to bring up. I did say one thing I wanted to say, but then he made a joke and it put me off saying anything else. He doesn't understand how hard it is for me to say things to him and I'm not sure how to tell him. I told him I'm not good with conversation, but I'm not sure whether he believes me.

He asked me once when my last relationship was and I told him the truth. I was in high school (I'm 28 now so that is obviously a long time) but he said he didn't believe me. I don't know if he was joking or not. Sometimes I have a hard time telling the difference when a person is serious or not. My first instinct is to take them seriously. I've been wanting to ask him whether he really did believe me or not, but like always I can't get the words out of my mouth. I don't understand why he wouldn't believe me.