(((hugs))) Well, I do think it's depression for you.. sigh but I could be wrong. Maybe the difference between the healthy "I hate my life." and the depressed one is: when you hate your life and you're not depressed, you can put your goals into focus and change your life; when you're depressed... you get more and more depressed because it's just the way life is and you can't and don't do anything really to be able to change it, and feel it won't do any good anyway... blah blah blah...?

Sounds like you have a good pdoc there, caring to ask questions!