Imagine if you will how I feel....
It is like I am on a huge circle of the strongest glue in the world and I am fighting like Hell to get unstuck but I am going nowhere.
I mean, I am trying every move possible. Which means taking advice from T, friends...Pc....but yet...still STUCK.
The only thing I am doing is actually creating the hole I may soon fall in.
It is unbelievable how I cannot get any breaks.
When I begin to feel better it quickly goes away with me doing something to sabotage.
And, when I feel like S*H*I*T ...well...so much easy to hurt myself in so many different ways to keep the goodness away.
The Monster inside of me is desparately trying to kill me.
And, I am so much weaker then the Monster!