I don't about your med and med history. Are you just taking Lamogritine? I take Lithium and Lamogritine and if I have a manic attack my doctor has given me samples of Abilify to take if I'm experiencing mania. I'm not a rapid cycler so I don't know if different meds are recommended in your situation.

You're not alone on the friend front. I didn't have a drug or alcohol addiction but lost almost all my friends and some family because of a bad manic attack I had 4 years ago.

I've tried the suicide thing. Pre-BP Diagnosis and it definitely wasn't the answer. Things did get better. There is definitely more to my story and I've had my ups and downs but will never attempt that route again.

Have you been in touch with your pdoc? 3 months seems like a long time for you to be experiencing mania. I think it's great that you recognize it. Not everyone has awareness like that. Have any adjustments to your meds been made? Can you get in to see your pdoc asap?

On another note, you mentioned that you don't have friends. Have you tried any support groups. I tried two groups via DSBA but didn't find a fit then I found a BP group through NAMI. I just found it and have attended for around 2 months. I am making new friends there that I can relate to.

Keep us posted. Thinking good thoughts for you.