well, i posted it in the ADD section but no one looked at it and theres more people in this thread..sooo yeahhh..

i was diagnosed with multiple learning disabilities in 4th grade. always in special education classes for math and study hall with an extra teacher to help me. Anyways, i have been in these classes ever since the fourth grade and had an IEP done also. In 8th grade i was diagnosed with ADD. I was put on Adderall and Strattera and different times, Strattera helped me but i had a problem with my liver, so that wasnt good. So, i am off ADD meds now but, i was put in special education classes for ALL classes. i then was getting excellent grades throughout the whole year because my teachers in my public school where they would give me the answers and let me slide all the time. I still did good, actually all A's but it wasnt worth it considering i did not learn literally a thing in school in middle and high school. So anyways, i decided to transfer my high school to a daytime theraputic school in nj due to my depression, cutting, bulima, bipolar, BPD, and stuff like that. ALTHOUGH they did NOT have special education classes for me. I'm still in the high school but i am struggling every single day. Everyone has faith in me, but i just cannot handle it at all. I know it as a fact. Anyways, i had an IEP done last year before i went away to a different school and i ended up doing some testing along with it too. The testing showed up that i was delayed in all subjects and areas of learning, auditorial, comprehension, etc. EVERYTHING. lol. it also said that i was equvalent to an elementary student, not high school student at all. Nowhere near it. Soo, i was looking at my IEP again last night and it said my reading comprehension level was at a grade level of 2.3. My social studies skills were at a level of 4.5. Life just sucks, because, realizing reality really makes you wonder am i really high school and eventually college material?? I'm not. im such a loser. grr. Anyway, so i dont know wheather or not to stay in my theraputic school because there are no classes made for me that they have. ALL regular education. But either way, i havent learned ANYTHING, literally in my other public high school either. grr....its so depressing, i dont have a proper education whatsoever!! I'm in the tenth grade now, and i'm 16 years old and still have the same struggles i did when i was in fourth grade, they havent really never improoved. Its just so depressing knowing that im not gona have a profession that i enjoy because my knowlege wasnt REAL, it wasnt instructed to me properly, i have an IQ of an elementary student, still do too. ughhh...idk what to do, should i stay in my theraputic school for the therapy?? I DESPERTALY NEED IT. or should i just transfer to another private high school to give me the proper education, if there is ANY. Which i have checked out and there is practically NONE. this sucks. idk what to do, i need help on making this descion, because of course i can never make descions on my own. You know that saying, your a child at heart? I guess im a child in thought....

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