During chatting, I realized I have a lot of unhealthy feelings toward my marriage. I married my husband even after things weren't going so well; I didn't want to break his heart by breaking the engagement. There was another guy who, at the time, I felt might make a better husband, but I wasn't sure whether I could have children or not and knew he wanted them badly, and I didn't want to break his heart, either. To keep from having to deal with the conflict, I kept to my initial agreement and convinced myself it was the moral thing to do. I now have a beautiful baby girl. My husband loves me a lot, but he's far from perfect. Obviously, I'm not the greatest myself. Anyway, how do I learn to be content with my husband and stop regretting that I'll never have the other life? And how do I not treat my husband like he's only second best? Because it's not fair that I punish him for my mistakes...or our daughter, who deserves a good family