My husband, my best friend and my dog all passed away in 2005. My husband in November. My in laws all turned on me as soon as he died. I did everything I could. I took off work and I went to the hospital everyday except twicw when there was big storms. I fought with the doctors and I tried to make him eat I used to wander around the supermarkets for hours trying to find something he would eat but it was so hard because of the chemo. Nobody wants to hear about it becasue they think its contagious or something. If they avoid me no one will die on them. They dont want to think about it or they dont know whatto say or they say something really F#%$&stupid. Im tired of this. I cant imagine spending the next forty years this way. Alone. I hate being alone and I miss my husband and I miss my friend.