Thanks again you guys! I'm just trying to keep the hope alive! I may be able to afford therapy and not have to tell my parents if I can get a reasonable enough price. I HIGHLY doubt that our insurance would cover therapy at all, anyway. We have a $4,000 deductible, in any case, so it's not like our insurance is overly helpful. I mean, don't get me wrong, I am EXTREMELY grateful to have insurance! Also, I am 20, so everything would be totally confidential, which is encouraging. Basically, I have mostly forgiven my sister because she was 11 or 12 when she perpetrated the molestation and there have been other things that have happened that have helped me to have empathy for her. However, when I was about 10-12 she coerced me into participating in cyber and phone sex and viewed pornography and masturbated in my presence. Needless to say, that was really hard to go through, too. I'm just trying to stop being controlled by those feelings and experiences. Also, Bill3, isolation due to a seemingly uncommon category of abuse is DEFINITELY an issue with me. I think that's most of the reason that it took me 10 sessions to tell my counselor. I was sure that she would not understand. Thanks for all of your help!