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Old Jan 23, 2006, 12:23 AM
Ally_Angel Ally_Angel is offline
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Member Since: Dec 2005
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Name: Ally
Age: 24
Sex: F
Location: New Zealand
Age when you first self-injured: 19
How long have you been self-injuring (months, years):
5 years
What are/were some of your triggers (i.e. fights with parents, school work, getting dumped, etc.)? Any tiny thing gets me upset, and can trigger it. Also if I get highly angry with someone, and frustrated, when I am feeling ignored and alone.

What did you know about self-injury before you started? How? I had seen it on tv, movies, talked about it in health studies class in school etc, know some other people that do it, or have done it etc.

What made you start self-injuring? (the specific incident or trigger if you can remember) I was feeling like my life wasn't going to get any better. I felt like I was in a downward spiral and couldn't get out.

Why do/did you self-injure? How does/did it make you feel better?
I do it because I don't know what else I can do. I do it because it helps me focus more on physical pain than the horrible feelings I cannot name.

How do/did you feel before, during, and after the self-injury? Like I was a blocked volcano, then I cut to release the pressure, and feel so much better. Then a feeling af guilt follows, and I have to patch it up to hide it.

Have there been any health scares that resulted from your self-injury (emergency room visits, etc.)? Did you continue to self-injure despite this? No emergency room visits from my cutting. Have only just recently admitted I have been doing it.

If you've been to a psychiatric hospital could you describe your experience? Did it help you? Why or why not?
I have not stayed in hospital but I go there to see a psychiatrist who is trying to help me to find other ways of coping. So far we haven't gotten anywhere really.

If you still self-injure do you think you will ever stop? Do you want to stop? Why can't/won't you stop?
Sure, if there was a better easier way of coping with all these indescribable feelings I would stop. of course I want to stop, But at the moment, this is how I cope.

If you don't self-injure anymore why did you stop? How did you stop? How hard is it to refrain from doing this?

Sometimes if I can get out of the house, and go somewhere else, it usually gets my mind off it. But most of the time its on my mind til I cut.

Have you been diagnosed with any mental disorders? If so, which ones (OCD, Major Depressive Disorder, Bipolar Disorder, etc.)?
Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, Borderline Personality Disorder.