Sorry, computer crash, i wasn't ignoring ya'll.
The good news is, this is still a minor problem, but just that; nothing i can't handle.
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I'm not sure I remember but I think I did...just go out anyway. The worst I experienced was some dissociation and agrophobia...
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Heretoday, a big part of my problem, as i not only have anxiety/depression, but also OCD, borderline personality disorder, PTSD and whatever else, is that i MAY very well dissociate in this situation.. which in light of recent events (ie: hallucinations, paranoia, extended periods of derealization and dissociation), i do NOT want to put myself into a situation where dissociating is my 'coping' mechanism.. as then we are playing in a whole new ball park, one that is much more concerning. I did however, TRY to go out for walks or further if i could, some days it just wasn't possible.
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Yes i have this. Its not as bad as it was..I would have fear of going places.. I couldnt make myself get in the car and go.I'd be very paranoid and feel anxiety and panic inside....The Dr.increased my anxiety medicine and it slowly started going away...
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Sunshine1992, i am on quite a bit of anxiolitic medication, different kinds. That's why this is so weird that i couldn't get past this!
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(((((Onmyway)))))), I'm sorry that you're having this difficulty. I avoid going out a lot. I often attribute it to depression, but social anxiety plays a big part with me. It sounds like it could well be medication-related for you, since the behavior sounds like an abrupt change. Whatever the etiology, I'm sure it's still miserable going through it. I hope that it lifts soon. I'm kicking myself this evening because I couldn't get myself to join a friend at a dance (which in fairness to myself is one of the more stressful activities for a depressed and socially anxious person). I even feel shy and withdrawn here at PC a lot of the time. I remember my brief occasional sojourns to "normalcy", so it really stings to live like this.
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lavieenrose, actually, it's funny you should mention this because i now believe it was medication related. I tried and tried to think of WHY i felt this way.. and nothing came to mind. But then it hit me that it started right around the exact time they increased my epival.
I do sometimes avoid going out for depression reasons but this was full out panic OMG CANT go out, even if i want to!
So i definitely know it wasn't depression related.
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Onmyway, how was the weekend? Hope you were able to get out.
I have this happen, and I use CBT type techniques to help. It works for me because my fears are related to being seen, making mistakes, and being exposed. It took awhile to figure out what I was actually afraid of--at first I just knew I didn't like it out there and I got scared. I use affirmations and try to figure out what my worries are; once I trace them, they have less power over my actions.
I'm not sure if that would help if you are having anxiety that isn't really attached to ideas. Using a person or object to help you feel more safe is a good step. If it's hard to do it even with someone there, you can try visualizing going out as an in-between step.
I'm glad you were able to talk to your therapist for support. Keep us posted!
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Thank you for asking about the weekend, i did get out it was hard but not insurmountable.
Like i mentioned above though i do think it was med related. I am getting a lot better using CBT in other situations though!
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How's everything been going onmyway?
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Thanks for asking.
Things are up and down but i think overall they are trending in the right direction.
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I've been thinking of you too ((((((((onmyway)))))))) and really hope to hear from you soon 
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Thank you sundog you're so sweet.
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Just wanted to post and say that you are not alone. I've had this problem for many years, to the point where I stopped leaving my house because I couldn't go anywhere without having a panic attack. I finally got help and my pdoc put me on anxiety medication and I started therapy, and now I almost never have anxiety going out in public. I really hope things get better for you and that you can talk to your T about this to help you get through it.
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Thanks Dani.
Even though it's much more under control, i see my psychologist on monday and will talk to her about coping techniques.