I was looking at some symptoms of schizophrenia about thinking you can predict the future and things of that nature. Well i dont think i can do that but sometimes i wonder what if i was not crazy and everyone else was. it just seems like people exist in this bubble and i have gotten out of mine. some things ive investigated have credibility which is why i dont know what to think.

i am referring to government things here that most people dont care to take notice of. How deep does it go i ask? not so much right now, but there was a time when i was so fully consumed by the implications that reality was gone, there was no reality. and if reality now is being ignorant to what is real, then who is to say i am mad or normal....who is the one who maintains the universal understanding of what is true?

and so one believes such things and then all of a sudden where you were where you are and where youre going lose sense of definition. anymore its a matter of holding my interest.

i seem to project myself into a grand scheme of things. i am the crusader where all others are lemmings. but is it sane to be a lemming?