Splitimage - Thank you! No, my therapist is not a specialist in that area. I am on disability so all I have is Medicare and Medicaid thru the state and that prevents me from seeing a "good" dr. or therapist. I am forced to go to a state funded clinic in order to get my meds and see a therapist in order to keep getting the meds. But I am doing the best that I can with what I have You are right, I need to start being honest with my therapist. I know it does no good to stuff everything down inside...it's like I can't stop doing it out of habit and it always lands me in the hospital at some point. Thanks for the warm welcome and advice, it's appreciated.

Can't stop crying - I understand, thank you, it's appreciated!

Open eyes - Thank you for the PM, I will respond in a bit. Your reply brought me to tears, it really moved me. I haven't cried in years...literally. It was dead on target, wow. I really appreciate you taking the time to respond back, it is really nice to know that I am not alone...that it can get better with time. To hear my feelings described so perfectly by another. So thank you!

-Jess