Hi folks,

It's been quite upsetting to read through this thread, I must admit. What bothers me most is the physical signs of OCD.

I have suffered from nervous ticks, mainly in my right shoulder, for most of my life but I didn't really take it on board until late in life. I was at my father's funeral and one of my uncles started ridiculing me about it (at the funeral!) and saying that I was 'just like my (dead) father'. They had hated each other all their lives and I had never seen them together.

This really hurt. Then his daughter, my cousin, had a go at me as well. What a viper's nest.

Anyway, since then I have been very aware that I have some behavioural signs of OCD and I work hard to keep it under control. My wife says that it is barely noticable.

What bothers me most is how I feel when I see another person with 'tics'. It really upsets me, because I think 'Oh no, I don't want to be like that!!"

The odd thing is that my friends and my nuclear family never mention it. Maybe tics aren't the worst thing in the world, but I must be linking them with the bullying I had from my father as a child; I guess something like that is going on. I must be thinking that they are a clear sign of what happened to me.

Needless to say I have no contact with my birth family - nothing at all.

Hmmm, hard thoughts on this topic.

How do others feel about seeing physical signs of OCD? Is it as upsetting for you as it is for me?

M.