*sigh* I wrote a long post which seemed to have vanished to planet NonExisting. Trying to get my thoughts back....I wanted to tell you to not listen to the "monster" and try to find the good voice within you. I feel different and I'm not sure what I've done and I won't be shocked if I fall again tomorrow, altho, I will feel my feelings and not act on the monster.....I'll get my own fairy to help me with all my wishes. I'll accept what is and what is not.... I'll JUST DO IT, breathing exercises...yoga...work out...walks...whatever it takes... Do it even if I don't feel like it. If I'm sad I will cry and if I'm feeling a slight bit of happiness I will smile. I will try to give love to others..... We need to be here...to give to others. Yes? Need a fairy? What makes you feet better? Talk to me...