My first discovery on meds, 50mg Lamictal, was that a persistent irritability disappeared. On 300mg,the present dose, real emotions filled my life.
I have coped all these years by learning to read expressions and respond properly. Considerable socioemotional problems, all the time.
It was hard on me, my familiy and all the people I could not get close to.

It vas a disorder, not within my reach to do anything.
Still, it is unpleasant to look back at the excessively rational I have been.