ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGH -

MEN! MEN! MEN! - I am so sick of males right now that I could just scream.... he says no to me a week ago and I feel rejected and yet life goes on.... then this morning he comes to me before work and I allow us to be together.... all a while I am thinking WHY is his need for sex any more important than my need for sex (I often get turned down)? - not much enjoyment for me in this moment, for my mind and heart was hurt and thinking to much.... why can't I ever say NO like he does? Oh - H*LL I know its that darn FEAR I call "fear" of being alone.... I hate my fear.

ArrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrGH!!! he is driving me crazy....

LoVe,
Rhapsody -