I'm sorry you are suffering so much right now. I often wish things were the way they used to be. I lost my mom 1 1/2 years ago to cancer. She never got the chance to go through chemo, unfortunately. She never had a chance to begin with. As soon as she was diagnosed, she was terminal. The doctors refused to touch her because of where the cancer was.

There isn't a day that goes by that I don't wish that either she was still with me or that I was with her.

Hang in there.