So I dragged myself out of bed at a normal time today so I could make a 10am appointment with my case manager.

So I get there about 10 minutes early. Then I sit waiting about 25 minutes past my appointment time - which was highly uncommon - my case manager has always been on time. So I'm figuring her previous appointment must have gone long - maybe there was a crisis or something.

So she comes out, but instead of calling for me from the doorway, she walks over to me. She's never done that, either, so I'm wondering what's going on. She asks me if I have my appointment card, because she has me down for Wednesday at 10, not today, and she's full today until Noon. I'm thinking, I'm almost totally sure she said Monday at 10, but when I dig out my appointment card I see she wrote it down for Wednesday.

Darn it. I really think she slipped up and said Monday instead of Wednesday, because I remember her telling me the date at my appointment Thursday and thinking it was really soon, but repeating it in my mind to commit it to my memory. I preferred the sooner appointment, anyway, because I'm feeling extremely unstable and overwhelmed lately. Then I put the card in my bag and never looked at it. *sigh*
But maybe I'm wrong. I dunno. My memory's all messed-up, anyway.

So... I'm tired, and feel like disappearing... I don't want to mess with anything... just stop existing.