you remind me a lot of myself. im always wondering why i always have to call. in my case, i just stop. seems i never learned how to make friends when i grew up....i was alone a lot.

in my case for contrast, i choose boredom. only i am not bored, i entertain myself and keep myself company; most of the time. it is dependent on what kind of mood im in, sometimes i am content to drink with my friends, others i just want to be alone in my room on my computer. i guess im just not a social person, but its hard to live like that and so i dont see a solution for me....maybe you can find yours with the suggestions thus far.

in general though, self doubt may or may not be truthful worries but what matters is your confidence either way. if youre confident that you look ok or said the right thing, then whether you do/did or not you still still the right thing. thats the thing with confidence. but its something i dont have.