Its raining again. They never get the forecasting right around here. Geesh. Going to go out there anyways with my raincoat and rubber boots. Funny we used to just call them rubbers and everyone knew we meant our boots. Not anymore. lol.

Struggle to meditate this morning. Hard hit of depression this morning. Feels like the bubble burst. Think gardening in the rain is fitting. Only think that appeals to me to get our of the cage. Not entertaining the thoughts in my head even though they are yelling at me.

Hope you are having a better moment. Not letting myself project beyond the moment. I know what to do but it is in conflict with what I feel so facing the depression is restricted by a lack of conviction. Facing the struggle is causing the face of struggle to smerk and laugh at me. Only one place to turn. Determined mindlessness in search of mindfullness of working moment by moment in the garden. The rain will be healing and make building a new rock wall easier to build with mud then dirt.

It will be a good day. My mantra moment by moment. Let it take me to a better place and a slower brain. Sorry for the downer.