I don't have regrets on what I have told my therapists when we were able to switch to being friends. Being friends to me is a much deeper level of trust and understanding then a therapy relationship so I know that what JEH and SKR knows of the darker side and the fact that they chose to remain friends says no matter what happened to me and no matter what I told them they really care and love me for me not for digging the deep and dark material out of me to get rid of. They both know theres probably more deep and dark stuff buried and still chose to be my friends after the therapy time was gone.

For us (me and the ex therapists now friends) the hard part isnt what I have told them. It's what comes after the therapy is gone - the one year no face to face contact and during that one year the therapists couldnt respond to my letters even though my letters were friendship based not therapy, and then the questions by the new therapists. Even now if my therapist were to ask any of us about our friendship or seeing/being in contact with each other we would all say "no" or "thats none of your business" simply because that is what we decided together to say before we gave up therapy time.