I don't always feel safe...and I never feel "normal" at all. I guess I really don't know what that's supposed to mean. Like normal for one person can be different than normal for another person. It all varies.

I know it is hard to just go day in and day out with all the ups and downs and the urges going crazy on you. Sometimes I feel like I cannot go on another minute but somehow I do.

I have hope that you will too. Just try to hang in there...and keep fighting no matter how tired you get of fighting.