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this is all i have for the moment
I wanted to first say I am sorry for getting you so frustrated over the trust thing. Maybe we will just have to agree to disagree on this. It is what it is and is probably best just left alone. I cannot remember ever trusting anyone as a kid. In fact I think in some strange way I trust more now than I ever did at 5 years old. Not that I trust people all that much now. I know I have always hated people, even at 5.
You spoke of babies having no choice but to trust. I don’t see being forced to be dependent on a parent or guardian as any form of trust. I may have been dependant but I don’t have to like it. The idea of that woman ever taking care of me in any way just makes me sick. The idea of her having to touch me for any reason makes my skin crawl, it’s disgusting. I can’t stand thinking about it. Knowing she hated every minute of anything she ever had to do for me and hated me for it. So she fed me. How hard could it have been to shove a bottle in my face to shut me up? Wow I was so wrong, I guess I was oozing trust all over the place, after all this undying love, who wouldn’t?
if you want ill post more as i write.please let me know what you think
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Dx, HUMAN
Rx, no medication for that
Last edited by granite1; Apr 17, 2011 at 12:15 AM.
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