yes. can't stand hearing it or saying it. feel this sudden and immense hatred for anyone who says it to me. just want to smack them in their mouth.

and the other, the not my fault. my t back in 96', that was his big thing. say it. believe it. hated him for it.

can't watch movies or read books about it. just go completely insane. have panic attacks and nightmares.
thanks for posting that. nice to know i'm not alone.