Actions speak louder than words......if she sees that your actions have changed & that you are controlling your bipolar with the meds you probably need to make sure you are on & you REALLY DO QUIT DRINKING......then she will see that you are serious.

If she just accepts what you are doing then all she is doing is continuing to enable your WRONG behavior.....& that would be wrong on her part.

Sometimes there comes a time in a friendship that all you can do is show the person that you have made the changed necessary for the friendship to continue because there is nothing you can SAY to prove that you have changed. It may take years since it probably took years to get her to this point in the first place.

If you are serious about what you have to say, then your actions will reflect that & she will see that you have made the changes you talk about.....but it also may take time for her to believe that the changes are permanent & not just temporary to get her friendship back also.

You are in a tough place.....but only you can make the changes necessary to help yourself & to restore your friendship.