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I don't remember where I posted something and I am formulating an expression of gratitude here around an event that happened yesterday so I'm thinking perhaps here is the best place for me to put down at least something.
The event was for abused people. I have never never never seen anything like this before. Perhaps that is why I am having so much difficulty in expressing myself here.
There have been plenty of 'healing theme events' I've been to but never never never anything specific to those who have been abused.
The light was shone on what happens to brains and bodies of people who are traumatized by abuse and the process they need to go through for healing and some good alternate therapies without labelling. But, I'm still kind of in awe about the fact that the event took place. Perhaps I can say more later about this, I'm not sure. There is a certain gratitude welling up within me.
A few months ago I heard of groups that get together to support abusers called circle of love or something and I just felt pretty angry and disheartened realizing that there was never never never anything called the circle of love for the abused.
So, yesterday the realization in my mind was (that I wanted to at first throw out), now that this event has occured, is that I can no longer say there hasn't been one. My cry/whine for the injustice of it all had been heard.
So, what if, what if, I saw my abusers through a one way glass (cause that is all I can think of at this point) and contemplated a face to face with them, what would I say, do, think, feel? That is about as far as I can think at this point. Maybe, I will ask my counsellor this question, yes, that is what I will do. This would all be pretty hypothetical as several abusers are dead and I wouldn't be 'caught dead' with the others. It's just a consideration I'm having about discussing this with the counsellor at this point.
But this idea of gratitude for this type of 'event' has unearthed something within me. The 'event' may not have been exactly the way I would like to have seen it done but the aspect of it even taking place was pretty profound.
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