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Apr 17, 2011, 09:09 PM
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Member Since: Apr 2011
Location: Cheyenne, Wyoming
Posts: 147
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I really really really fu##ing hate that my boyfriend doesn't believe in Manic-depression, my symptoms or any of it. I hate that he makes me feel like he thinks I'm faking it. I hate that he feels like everyone who has it is a liar. I am very very very frustrated and irritated. When I have a down day he gets irritated and makes me feel like crap a bit like I can f##king do anything about it. I'm tired of when I'm just f##king down he asks what the matter is, no matter what I tell him hes never satisfied. I'm sick of defending myself and blaming the disease and my lack of control of it. It SOUNDS like a cop-out and I can see where he is coming from. NOTHING is the matter its just the f##king way it is.
I'm just tired of other normal people not understanding. I wouldn't ACT this way for NO reason! I've just been diagnosed and I don't know wtf to think EVER! I'm NOT lazy, I love my life but I cant control ANY of the **** that happens and I'm not about to start acting like I can! FUUHHKK!!! F%&#. I REALLY needed to get that out. FU##! WHO would choose this for themselves? (Any suggestions on educating the ignorant?)
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"I may be on the side of the angels, but don't think for one second that I am one of them."
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