Thanks for your very swift awser

I did take a couple tests allready more then just on this site.
I'll run them over:

EQ : all time low...
AQ : suprisingly high

On this site i took the two following tests:
the test for bipolar witch i stoped when i filled it in half way because as i filled things in i felt more and more convinced that it really whouldn't be this.

The ADD test said i had mild ADD but i dunno about that.

The depression test said i maight be mildly depressed but i don't think so

The last one i took is the schizophrenia test i scored pritty high there above 15 if i rember correct but i think that has to do with the fact i'm kind of paranoid because i used to get bullied and it left it's scares...

I don't want an doctor appointment. I know that must sound very odd but i don't trust them or understand them. Last year as me and some friends had a fight after witch they told me these things i went to a school social worker and talked about things... It left me more confused then anything and afterwards he kept following me around asking me if i felt better now about the fight and stuff...
Plus it whould mean i have to bother my family.. You know i can't mum cares a great deal about me because she always says i'm different, special and last time i told her i saw that school councler she was really upset and started making this big deal out of it... Made me feel even wurse... plus they all have there own problems around here you know... My mum has a bad back, my sister has a wierd need to always be the center of attention and has a bad knee...

I have to say this seems a really nice place