Thread: Arrgghhh.....
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Old Sep 12, 2002, 05:57 AM
rmm5497 rmm5497 is offline
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Thanks...it's hard to relax though I'm trying...this is really scary for me...feel like I'm starting ALL over again and it hurts like hell that another woman is cooking in my kitchen and rearranging my vases, and cleaning my house and I get home from work and SEE all these little things changed in the house I worked so hard to decorate and make a home...I know she's in bad place and I really would probably not have a problem with her staying UNDER NORMAL CIRCUMSTANCES, I'm trying not to let my own emotions make me less sympathetic...I was 17 and pregnant, I know what it's like to be in bad place in your life, but the circumstances just make it heart wrenching...and then of ocurse theres the fact that my husband is like "wow look how clean the house is" and I feel all inadequate about that...I'm just a terrible housekeeper...by the time I get done with work, school, homework, getting something to eat for dinner...the last thing I feel like doing is cleaning...I'd rather sit down and watch cartoons with my son or read him story or just relax and unwind myself...the laundry kind of gets last billing...all of my cleaning kind of gets delegated to the weekends and whatever doesn't get done in one day...well it just doesn't get done...I don't want to spend my whole weekend cleaning either...just very sad about losing my home...I knew it was coming but I didn't expect to have to watch it's functionality change before my eyes...ahh well I will get another house someday...