She is sedated this morning, but they were looking for an abscess, but didn't find one and have called in specialist to consult. Now just waiting to see if they can keep fever down and blood pressure up.

Still just scared, because I am so out of my comfort zone with my mom being the patient instead of my dad.

I kinda freaked out on my husband during the night. I woke him up by lightly hitting him on the back and asking rather loudly, "if he hated me this much, that he could just not care what was wrong.... he hadn't responded to my sobs that were shaking the bed and I had been crying for almost two hours.

I then sort of did what I was supposed to and divert my attention to something else to not focus on the thing causing me the anxiety.......PROBLEM... I started talking about our relationship which is usually th ething that has me anxious... and it also pushes my hubby away, but I kept appologizing and trying to tell him I didn't mean to be talking about it... that I am trying to leave him alone and give him his space....AND ON AND ON for an hour...